Hello, my loves!
happy happy happy new year!!
Can you imagine we are one!!! So much emotion inundates me as I write this. And as much as I haven’t been that consistent with my postings, the love and support from you all has never ceased, always overwhelming and I can’t thank you all enough. For this sole reason, to reciprocate my love and to celebrate my blog, I will give you a little bit of insight on how it all began, what led to the birth of Amor, and why Amor. This is a very personal story but I think I’m ready to share it. I’ve healed and am at peace with myself.
About a year and a half ago or more…. I certainly wish I could say I was heart broken, but I cant because it was never love (I think it was mere desperation to settle down). So Let’s just say I was betrayed. It was the most shocking and absurd thing I had ever had to experience. For a split second I felt like I should have been 19 when this happened, maybe it wouldn’t be so brutal to deal with. The betrayal however never even came from the guy, honestly I’d have cared less, but it came from those I won’t say were my friends but acquaintances whom I upheld with so much dignity and regard. You know those acquaintances that are attached to relationships. Yup! those ones. What made things worse was I had my own friends whom I attached to the relationship who chose to jump ship because I refused to tell my side of the story (I honestly felt it was none of their business) . It was a very confusing time of my life and I think I almost lost it, until one evening I decided this needs to end, life is to short to dwell in regret. So I picked up the phone and called the only two people who had full disclosure of what was going on by then, of course apart from those who were dwelling on hearsay. Told them how I felt the time to start my fashion blog was now, how writing would give me peace and how I wished to name the blog Amor after their daughters whom at that time one was my unborn Godchild. They were elated and very supportive, throwing in ideas here and there.
I barely had enough to spare for the luxury of a photographer but I figured I needed to do this either way, so the first person that came to my mind was my good old friend Moses (Modan), I explained everything to him and he told me he sees potential and it’s never about the money. Just like that, we were on to scheduling for our first shoot. Modan was just heaven-sent I tell you, he got the perfect location and even got me a make up artist!! what was even more remarkable was the day of the shoot my best friend went into labor and gave birth to my God child Amor…. I mean how symbolic can this get!!
So today I want to appreciate my support systems, Olivia and Brenda. These beautiful mothers have been nothing but my right hand. They have had my back through thick and thin and would fight for nothing but my happiness. Gorgeous mothers each to beautiful little Girls called AMOR whom I named my blog after. Thank You for always having my back. May God bless you abundantly!
To you, Moses, cheers to many more fun shooting sessions and thank you for believing in me when I didn’t even have the strength to believe in myself! trust me you can never go wrong with Modan Photography
Finally to you my lovely readers! I don’t even know where to begin because, without you, this blog would have been nonexistent. Thank You for the overwhelming support. you are the reason I healed and found peace again. You brought forth the birth of penning my story because I get to walk this journey of life with you all. God bless you all. Always remember to forgive and forget what hurt you but never ever forget what it taught you. Draw your strength from the scars of your past.
P.S No matter how bad the betrayal is, always remember there is always a fair God up there and vengeance comes from Him. Certainly when one door closes he opens a door a window garage door..you name it! I saw how much He did for me after all this in 2015 and I’m grateful I chose to cast my burdens unto Him. It paid back tenfolds!!!
Now enjoy this lovely shoot courtesy of Serena Hotel. Perhaps the baby girls (Amor) will join us next anniversary. They were too fussy to keep up with the shoot.
White Skinny Jeans: TokFashion Mombasa
White Shirt: Zara
Mint Green Flats: Waridi Fashionz
Navy blue platform heels: Backyard Shoez Nairobi
Neck piece: WoolWorths
Sunglasses: Rayban (online)
Lipstick: Ruby Woo